Grace

It's funny how God always knows the things you need to hear or see or read. Today I came across a much needed reminder of how our God is the only one who can satisfy. We create lies and build up idols in our lives to give us comfort from the things we fear the most. Whenever there is something going on in my life and I don't know how to deal with it, my first instinct/coping mechanism is to run away from it. Instead of turning to God and trusting that He is in full control and authority, I seek ways in which I can solve it. When it becomes too overwhelming, I ignore it completely until it slowly creeps back up to haunt me.

I've been running away from dealing with this whole internship for awhile now. At first Europe was an excuse to not have to think about it, to rest and enjoy myself. But then I came back home and the reality of it hit even harder. I was so afraid, still am so scared and I hate the doubts that are floating around inside of me. What happened to my unshakable faith when I first made this decision? Now all I ask myself is, what did I get myself into? I think it's about time I stop running and face my reality. What do I have to be afraid of when I have our almighty God behind me every step of the way? Every challenge, struggle, trial and toil, I know God will help me make it through.

Our God is so gracious. He never gives up on us even when we may have given up on ourselves.