#littlejoys :)

today was a nice day :)

I slept in
I met and skyped with my intern director and the four other interns I will be living with
I ate lunch (pho!) and spent some time with my sister
My parents, sister and I went to just hang out and talk at a cafe :)
I got lots of errands done
I'm almost done packing

sometimes i just want time to pause. stop. there's so much happening all at once. as soon as i feel like one aspect of my life is under 'control' another one is in a whirlwind. i just need time to pause. collect myself. europe will be good. i won't need to worry about things...think about life. haha but i feel like returning will be reality smacking me hard in the face.

"the Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still" -Exodus 14:14

It is 3:39pm Saturday April 21, 2012. My last final of undergrad is in less than 4 hours. It feels weird thinking how I'm never gonna be studying at DP or DC with people again. It's bittersweet. I didn't realize it as people slowly finished how these were memories in the making...study parties at DP seventh floor :P I'm by myself at DP, trying to kill time before I write my exam. I'm pretty much ready. I know my notes...should review people's presentations a bit and skim through the textbook but wow. I just feel weird hahaha 4 years at Waterloo over in less than 4 hours. It's been good. I'm so different than who I was when I first came in. Heck, I'm so different than who I was even in September. I'm slowly beginning to understand how people feel at convocation. These past years, you put so much of yourself in, invested so much in this place and after 4/5 years, it's over. It feels amazing. You've achieved something but it really is bittersweet. Such good times, good memories and good relationships were made but it's time for a new chapter in your life with more goodness to come. bahhh UW, you have been good to me :)

Why I am only discovering Alex Goot now?! I love this too



I really liked this song back in the day! I like how he has a lot of variety in his covers. Yay for oldies :)

i like this :)

I cut my hair today. It was quite spontaneous. I'm not sure if I regret or not. It's very short and quite different from what I had previously. New cut, new beginnings? I'm not sure haha

I definately took off a lot though. The floor looked like a dog exploded or something (sorry for that image). It was a lot of hair. It feels so light now, and airy and free :) All my damaged parts has been cut off. It's so healthy and soft hahaha I will have to see if I like it after I wash it and try to style it myself.

i decided to go for a run today and failed miserably. haha i went outside, ran for a minute and then it got really cold. i decided to run faster...makes sense, run more, sweat more right? no, the winds got soooo strong and it got so cold so i went home and ate more rice paper wraps hahahahha

so fail.

although i must say, i have become a pro rice paper wrapper. i would take a picture but i ate them all muahaha

As I sit and think back on the year, the events held, the time spent, the number of people I interacted with, invested in and grew to know and love, I am overwhelmed by an overflowing amount of joy. It's not something I can easily express. As I remember stories and testimonies, retreats and conferences, small groups, meetings, bible studies and large group talks I see just how much God has been moving, working, molding and transforming. It's actually unbelievable. I am so blessed, so hopeful and so expectant of the goodness to come.

I love gummy bears :) hehe and these ones are super sweet and juicy. Legit Haribo gummy bears straight from Germany! I need to stop buying cheap ones from bulk barn....it really makes a difference hahah. Actually...I need to stop eating gummy bears in general......

alright. time to kill this take home! i must finish it tonight!

what I do when I'm bored at work :P heh


egg people


turkey fortune cookies (with words of wisdom)

It's crazy the range of emotions you can feel in a day

I am thankful for beautiful day and introverted time I got to spend. I thoroughly enjoyed myself today as I walked around waterloo park and found a nice spot under the sun and by the mini waterfall to sit, journal, read and reflect on a lot of things.
I feel like so much happened today. After meeting up with a friend in the morning my heart felt really sad. I was realizing the amazing relationships God had blessed me with paired with the regret that I wish I had invested more into them. Certain relationships are only beginning and others have been put on hold. Still others have been growing and flourishing but my time here is done.

I don't want to say that these relationships are ending. I have been brought so much joy and growth and been impacted by so many of these relationships that I know distance cannot break it. But, I know that change is coming. And I hate change. I know I'm going to need to learn to adjust and in that, these relationships are going to look different. It honestly makes me so sad to think about next year, of leaving, of starting over, of the unknown....

I don't want to leave. I love these people too much. But I also believe in God's goodness. I know he places people in your life at a specific time for a specific reason. I also know you are placed in someone's life for a specific time and specific reason. And when these relationships change it just means it's time for new people to be in your life. It doesn't mean these relationships are over. They never will be. But the way they are, how they look like, the way it impacts you in daily life will change. I trust that God wants only what is good for you and he makes room in your life for more goodness to come. I am in the state where my life is comfortable, I love the people and relationships in my life, why does God have to go and upset that? But I'm holding onto the promise that there is more he wants for me and the people in my life. Things are good now, but it's only a fraction of God's gift to us. He wants to give us more and we have to allow God to make changes in our lives so that we can receive it.

I'm still in that learning to adjust state. It's difficult and I think it will take awhile but it's crazy what happens next. It's like as soon as I reaffirm myself that God is good and has a lot promised for me, I get an email from teacher's college saying I am able to defer my acceptance for the following year. I don't know why God is so good. I need to keep having faith that God wants only the good things for me and is looking after me. He is holding me in his hands. He is a big God and there is nothing too big for him. :)

I am thankful for old friendships that have stuck by me in the good and the bad and know will stick by me no matter what rough winds will come my way. I'm thankful that these friendships are ones where I can be silly, be myself,be dumb, cry, laugh, make mistakes, not be judged and know that I am loved. They are people whom God has blessed me with in my life who will support me, encourage me, understand me and motivate me.

It's weird looking back and seeing how far certain relationships have come. I think in the times where it's been hard or where there's been a lot of doubt and hurt, it's because there were shifts in the relationships. It's a reality that life happens. God gives us different dreams and passions to pursue and when we go after those, relationships go through change as well.

I'm reminded today that no matter what changes happen, what difficult things that are ahead, these relationships are all given by God. Love is unconditional. It is learning to understand that even though we may be on different paths and pursuing different things, that these friendships are lifelong. I am happy :)

When I'm not in school/studying, I really have no idea what to do with my time hahaha kinda sad -___-
I've had basically a week off and I've done nothing. I've been working more and watching movies...I need to plan some things to do. I need to finish off some errands, find a job, prepare for Europe and bake some goodies :D Too bad mostly everyone else is studying! I don't have people to play with :P

We are family :)

KCF 2012 exec team <3

It's actually crazy how far we've come haha I can't believe the year is over already. It's been a super long year. It felt slow but at the same time like it went by super fast. It's April already! The year is over. I'm done! O_O

We had our last exec meeting of the year today. Dang, it just seems like everything is finishing up lately. It's a weird feeling....things ending. I'm honestly so thankful for this team of people that God placed me with this year. We've gone through so much together and had our ups and downs but I can honestly say that this is a family God has given us.

It's funny looking back to last April. Last April I found out i'd be serving on exec 2011-2012. It was a bit bitter. There was drama that happened and truthfully, I didn't know whether or not I'd actually want to serve. I remember clearly at MayCon, we had a brief 'exec' meeting discussing how there was a mandatory conference in August that execs had to attend. At that time I had already booked my flights to HK and Korea and didn't care at all that I wasn't going to the conference. I remember thinking how they better not dare ask me to re-book my flights, a bit arrogant of me i'd say.

I also remember thinking about who the exec team would be made up of and honestly not knowing how I would make it through the year. I really doubted if this was really a team that God had put together, I didn't know anyone but I knew all of them were strong-willed and pretty direct. A good percentage of me had decided I wasn't going to serve but the little bit left decided I'd wait till after Bangladesh to withdraw. HAHA what a joke :P After Bangladesh I made clear commitments not to let what happened in Bangladesh happen at UWKCF...and what a year it has been. I see God's goodness so fully and abundantly. We were truly blessed by God so much this year. It was amazing witnessing the growth of individuals and of the community...and at the end of this whole year, I can truly say that this community and this exec team are like family to me.

I know we are individuals who care for one another, pray for one another and will support and encourage one another. We are all still learning the ways we give and receive love, but I know that if anything were to happen to me, I could tell one of these guys and they'd be there for me :) Here I'm only speaking of the exec team but this year God has honestly blessed me with relationships that are so dear to me. He has shown me what family in God's kingdom is like. We are family when we are all pursuing God and doing his work together.

This is definately going into my 500 project. I am so thankful and filled with joy when I reflect on the relationships God has placed in my life :)

OFFICIALLY DONE MY UNDERGRADUATE CLASSES!!! O_O

dang.
what a weird feeling.