recently discovered frank ocean ^^ hehe so good

this is also really cute :)

for a more casual setting ^^

i want this dress.

christmas can't come any sooner!

snakes and lattes.

karaoke.

boxing day shopping.

food expeditions.

sugar cookies.

yule log cakes.

cafes.

kensington.

bowling.

chocolate fondue party.

movies.

gingerbread house.

decorations.

card making.

chats into the wee of dawn.

tobogganing.

oh man oh man i think my list can go on and on! i can't wait for christmas break. but for now i must focus!! focus focus focus!

it's a do nothing kinda day :)

it finally snowed today!! that made me happy haha i can't wait till everything becomes white and beautiful :) although i know in mid january i'll want it to stop :P for now, i'm excited!

i'm at princess cafe ^^ it's been awhile. this place always gives me such a nice feeling. i wanna do nothing today but cuddle up in my blanket, watch a heart-warming movie, drink tea and eat nutella. haha it's one of those days :)

must wait though! got so much to do but i'm hopeful haha just need to get everything done and keep pushing forward. this term is over so quick, i gotta finish strong!

and christmas is almost here! christmas music, lights, decorations, food, sparkles, scarves, mittens, snow...everything about christmas makes me so happy! hehe i'm looking forward to my break during finals to make christmas cards and bake christmas cookies!

i'm so tired. i just want to sleep. i fell asleep for 25 minutes already. i feel like my brain has stopped functioning. i've literally been running on coffee all week. i just need to last til tmr. then i can sleep. but i feel so stuck on this paper. i can't do it anymore :( i know i can't think like that because it'll make it even harder to do but really, i am so exhausted. ughghghghghhg

hull.

hullllllllllll -_____- OTL!

i need to be super productive today. got so much to do but i don't want to do any of it. my motivation is dyinggg i just want christmas to come :) christmas and snow and music and decorations and prettiness haha sooooonnnn!

haha someone's cellphone just rang...it sounded like the ones in those chinese cop dramas

i also just want to watch a movie and make lattes and eat popcorn and bake and do my nails ^^

ok. for now i must study. bye

a random act of kindness

today i walked into starbucks for my coffee fill before studying. as i was about to pay, the server tells me that a women from before left a whole bunch of extra change to pay for the drinks of the next few customers! i felt so touched. even from a stranger. i don't know what she looks like or who she is but this was so kind and humble. it's so encouraging to know that this world is still full of good people. haha that sounds depressing but a lot of the time we just hear how ugly and destructive this world and people could be. there is still love :) hehe it reminds me of the movie pay it forward. i feel like i should pay this love and kindness forward so that others could also be blessed and encouraged.

loved.

thank you so much friends for your love, care and thoughts. i feel so loved, encouraged and blessed to have you in my life. God truly places people in your lives at certain periods in time for a reason. i'm learning people come in and out of your life but really, we need to be thankful and love the ones that are present. eeek i'm so touched. thank you!

but i have to admit that i like this too...

Frank warms my heart ^^

i really really really wish school was over. i can't wait for christmas to come!!! i just want to not have to worry about anything, not have to go to class, not have to study and write papers and be freee!! i want to play! and bake toooo! i found all these cute baking ideas that i wanna try!





i love christmas baking! hopefully this year i will have time. i have 10 days between my exams. i can make my christmas cards and do some baking then! gahhh just want christmas to come! anndd i don't like rain. i would much rather it snow than rain.

i have a midterm worth 40% in an hour and a half that i am not ready for and here i am blogging. gahh somsing is wrong with me. so here's the thing...i'm contemplating applying for teacher's college or ot and in my mind i've kind of decided to apply for teacher's college. i want to work with kids and i want to do something with a mesh of ot in it...so helping children live their lives to the fullest regardless of conditions they may have. i think i wanna do something with learning disabilities? which i never would've considered before but i'm taking a class this term on that and it might be something i wanna do.

having this kind of thinking though is not working out for me, i feel like i don't need to worry about my marks so much because i think i can get into teacher's college? it was ot that i was a bit worried about, but if i don't wanna do that then i dont have to worry right?? wrong. knowing me, what if i change my mind in february? then i'd be screwed! i should keep my options open but i'm finding it really hard to keep that motivation. i'm pretty sure that school and i need to go on a break, it's been roughly a 16 year relationship hahaa

-____________- what to doooo??

i just found out les mis is coming to toronto in july! this makes me super excited!! i've always wanted to watch les mis and phantom of the opera! july is still so far away though :( and then i think, when will i ever watch phantom? it never comes to canada! i guess i will just have to keep waiting...kekeke maybe my future boyfriend will surprise me with a trip to ny or london and watch phantom! that'd be amazinggg bahahhaha a girl can only dream right? :P

Ephesians 4:17-32

17 So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. 18 They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. 19 Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, and they are full of greed.
20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned 21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

25 Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body. 26 “In your anger do not sin”[d]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 and do not give the devil a foothold. 28 Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.

29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

seeing christmas decorations come out and cups changing into christmas colours make me really happy :) christmas is my favourite. is it too early for christmas music??? hehehe

this is love.

God is good and He delivers ^^ good meeting tonight! i feel the weight just lifted off my heart :) it's the beginning of something. we are learning to take small steps. hooray! :D

the reunion was really good. it felt so unreal to be with these people again and now it feels weird to go back to study mode. it was too short. i wish there was more time to catch up with people properly but it was so good just to be in each other's presence and hear about what's been going on on our different campuses and also just play games and share memories about bangladesh :)

it also came at the perfect time. my heart feels heavy though. it's crazy to realize that God's plan really is greater than us. He's planned things from before we even realize. i can see parallels in things that happened in bangladesh to things that are happening now. i also feel so blessed with the people and relationships God placed in my life through the common experience of bangladesh. it's like God knew what this year was going to be like for me and what people i would need in my life as support and to go through similar things together. it doesn't make it easier but it's comforting to know that i'm not alone in it and that God knew all this was going to happen. He planned for it to happen. since it's in His plan, it is only for our good because He only wants the best for us. we're only given what we can take and through it all we grow to depend on Him more.

it was a really good weekend and i pray for all the other campuses that God continue working and transforming people there. for our campus i really really pray that God just intervene, guide us with His Spirit, give us boldness and faith, help us to trust and believe, to love and be vulnerable, to speak truth, give us comfort, heal us, help us learn that His love is sufficient and that our worth is in Him, we are His children, we belong to him and give us wisdom in how to lead and share His vision...

bahhh

days always get better. i am still encouraged by many little things. i'm thankful for my friends that are always there to listen and support me. i'm also thankful for the gorgeous weather today. i need to hold my head high and keep thinking postively :) things will always be ok. God has a perfect plan for me. He has already given me everything i need to get through it all!

andd we have our bangladesh reunion this weekend :) i am really excited. it will be really nice to see everyone again!

It's been a tough term with lots of ups and downs. I'm being reminded to fully place my trust and identity in God. When things are hard or discouraging I need to place my hope in God. When I feel like I can't do it anymore or doubt myself, I need to trust that God has given me the skills to do what I need to do. I feel like I'm in chains. I need the freedom that is in God and God alone. I need God to free me from the hurt. I need God to show me people through His eyes.