trust!

everything that happens is filtered through God's will and no matter what path you take, God is in all of them :)

that has been very encouraging for me. as my interview draws nearer i'm getting more nervous but i need to really just trust God in this. if this is where He wants me to go, then this door will be opened for me.

i have this problem that whenever there's a decision before me that's partially made, i get really excited about it and get ahead of myself. i think i'd really like to go to york. i've never actually wanted something before and have this possibility of not being able to get it....usually i'll try my best and somehow God blesses me and i'm able to achieve it. but this opportunity here, it really seems so out of my control...i can do my best but really, i dunno if i'd get it. it's really up to God. i hope that this is His plan for me. i also hope though that if it isn't, i'd still be okay with that and continue to trust God in his plan for me....that He has something better planned :)

my struggle before was between teaching and interning with ivcf. i guess i wanted to know that it was okay for me to say no to interning and that i'd still grow and learn and have God so present in my life. i don't believe interning is the only way to grow more, though i know it's a great opportunity to. i know york will be a really good opportunity too. even if i get into laurier or western i know both those places will be too comfortable for me.

ahhhh it makes me so much more nervous because i really want this...but i know that everything is under control, God's got my back. i just need to let go and completely trust him and believe that whatever the outcome it is part of his plan for me!

prayers will be veryyyyy appreciated! haha not that i do well on the interview but that i can completely surrender this opportunity to God and trust that God is with me every step of the way :)