there is freedom.

i've taken to the gym for a break from things....i guess that's a good thing? it's actually true how you have more energy after exercising. or just feel better...it's those endorphins. i'm so tired these days. seriously burnt out but going to the gym makes me feel better. i can just run and sweat and not really have to think about anything :) my membership is going to end soon though...it's been super convenient but it doesn't make sense for me to continue. it's $40 a month and i won't be here for 2 months in the summer for sure so that's already $80. also, who knows where i'll be next year too....bah crazy how even small decisions like this depend on graduation. i've been getting very restless...just wanna know what's going on, what jesus is saying.......it's partly my fault cuz i feel like a part of me is giving up (partly from exhaustion) but also because it's just easier. i have to get out of this hole. i need to take time this week to just figure things out and then know that God will move at our conference this weekend