there is freedom.

I don't know what it is about being back in Waterloo. The conference was seriously so good. I'm still trying to figure out what God wanted me to receive from it but I really caught a glimpse of the kind of community God intends for his believers to live in. During our extended worship time on Saturday night, it seemed as though every thing that normally holds people apart, whether it's differences in culture, language, communication or even fear and judgment just disappeared. The Holy Spirit just poured himself into the room. It was so present that you couldn't walk in and deny it's presence. It was so powerful. Everything that would normally hold people back from worship, from prayer, from community seriously just disappeared. Strangers were offering prayer to each other, groups of people were praying and clinging onto the power of the Spirit, people all over the room were just worshipping and pouring out praise. It was so free and so joyful. It's so true in the Bible when it says, "where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM!" People were just free to be themselves, free to express what was going on inside of them, free to pray, free to worship, free to ask for prayer and share and be in community. It makes me just realize how the things we put so much emphasis or care on in our daily lives, really don't matter. We fear what others may think, we fear we may say the wrong words or offend people, we fear that people don't actually care or love us. We fear we may cross the line between cultures and do something wrong, we fear that we may not understand others or they won't get us, we fear so many things but really, in God's family, in his kingdom, these things aren't there. We are free to worship and free to be ourselves completely knowing there is no judgment and that there is love and joy. It was really a great night.

Now i'm back in Waterloo and I dunno....I just want to be by myself, not see people, go to my cafes, journal and drink coffee....hahah is that normal? Maybe it's just my introverted self needing to re-energize myself. I'm coming from such an amazing weekend, I don't want to go back into my hole I was sort of in. I still don't think things are sorted out between God and I but i'm praying for more clarity. Maybe there has been but i'm not sure. I think I just need to learn to be patient. I say that i'm waiting on God but putting my own time expectations on it. That's not completely surrendering to God....still things I need to work on :/

anyway....this is a sick cover of Adele :P