Carita House: Day 3

I can't believe it's only day 3! haha it feels like its been awhile already. I find it kinda hard, it's hard to mingle and feel comfortable. I feel much more comfortable to be myself with the core members than with the other assistants...maybe cuz I feel like they won't judge? And the assistants are all friends already so it's hard to try and squeeze myself in :( and ya...i dunno...I feel inadequate sometimes. I don't really know what to do so sometimes I just feel so useless or like i'm getting paid to watch TV, but my house leader was telling me that I guess this is how L'Arche is. You kinda learn everything slowly, you observe and learn personalities and then you learn to love them and care for them. You can't really think of it as a job but rather that this is a house in which I live and live life with them. It emphasizes on community and a family life which is really good but right now it's just hard to fit in. I know it's only been 3 days, but still...it feels weird...I just wanna go crazyyy haha :P

On a brighter note, I did get to explore the city a bit today :) I walked around 'downtown.' haha I dunno if it's classified as downtown, kinda like Waterloo uptown. It's pretty nice though. It's just a small town with a lot of really cute shops and cool cafes! And of course the lake!! It's absolutely beaUtiful! :) There are SO many swans too...like literally 20 of them...haha Waterloo park swans seem ghetto compared to this one. But I still like the Waterloo one better I think...it's homier :P This one basically just has a track around the lake with a few benches but Waterloo has gazebos and UFO swings...and nothinggg can beat UFO swings :)

We also had community worship tonight so everyone got together and sang songs and heard bible stories :P There were kids there too that were singing and doing actions...reminded me of VBS :( it was nice though haha

anywayy I need to find more stuff to do cuz I think i'm gonna get bored quickly :P I did bring a lot of books, but I think I need more variety haha :P