I went on a walk up Mont Royal last night and I'm glad I did! At first I was quite hesitant. I went by myself and looking into the wooded trail up, it was really dark and kind of scary. I felt like it was a parable to my life. I know there is a spectacular view at the top but going there is scary and I don't know what to expect. It's so easy to just say no and turn back but then I miss out on what's at the end. Looking into the forest, it was dark and my imagination could go wild as to what could happen. Do I say no and turn back towards what is familiar and comfortable? Or do I go forward into the unexpected, taking a risk and trusting that God is by my side? In what places in my life am I hesitating? Once I took the first step towards the mountain, it was much easier to keep going forward. In fact, turning back halfway just seemed stupid. I feel like in my journey with God, the only place to go is forward. There is no turning back once you've entered the Kingdom. It can get tiring, and new risks lie ahead but I need to keep going. It felt so nice once I got to the top of the mountain. It was so beautiful. I know that God has something amazing planned for my life. I'm at the point where I look out and everything seems dark, unknown and dangerous, but I need to trust that God is always by my side and that as I go forward, I am not in it alone. He is by my side. Don't settle for what you know or what is comfortable. God has something far greater than you can imagine that He wants to give you. But you need to accept it, respond and go forward.

I'm glad that Montreal and all the beautiful people I have met here has been a part of my life story. I love this city, my housemates, my students and the friends I've made. Every part of me would love for God to call me here but I know it's not the place, at least not now anyway. I need to keep moving with God and wherever He is calling, believing in His promises.

New Baking Ideas!

Rainbow Rice Krispy Squares!

These look a lot of fun and add colour to a simple but yummy dessert :) Perfect for a picnic! Spring is coming!!

Red Velvet Cheesecake Pops

These just seem like they'd be fun to bake and a surprise in the mouth! Probably quite heavy but delicious nonetheless!

Lemon Almond Cake

I just had a slice of lemon almond cake at a cafe I was at and it was amazing! I'd like to attempt to make my own! A light and flavourful dessert :)

I love this.


* Maggie Blanchard *c'est* si* bon* de* louer... by Kadoch_Mati

After a week of retreats it's back to work. I can't believe how fast time is going. It's already March!

Learn to Surrender

How does Jesus see me? How do I see myself? What is Jesus trying to say? What is he trying to change?

World shift changes are hard. It's painful and difficult to understand. There is so much unlearning that needs to be done and so much mental work put into reminding myself about what Jesus says about his kingdom. I'm tired. I want to rest and look back, even just for a second, to a place of comfort and familiarity, but the kingdom keeps on moving forward. The Son of Man has no place to rest his head...

But I'm won to the kingdom. I'm won to the love of this God whom I praise and worship. I'm won to the love in which I have no capacity to understand and hurts to embrace. I'm won to His grace, to the suffering and trials, to His hope and joy and promise.

I know the only direction to go is forward and the only place of rest is in Jesus. 

i am...

A sprained ankle is no fun. I really hope it is just minor because tomorrow is a packed day for me. Please pray for speedy healing! 

I felt the love though when my fellow housemates lent their shoulders as crutches and sang songs of climbing mountains for me on our slow walk home. I don't know why I've been getting sick so much here in Montreal, but I feel like time and time again, I'm placed in situations where I need to depend on others or ask for help. I do believe God is trying to change my worldview.