I was doing devos with a friend this morning and we both randomly picked a proverbs for ourselves... I got proverbs 14:4 which says
'Where there are no oxen, the manger is empty,
but from the strength of an ox come abundant harvests.'
Tonight is my deadline for Bangladesh and I think I've decided to go? I just need to talk with my parents first.
It's funny cuz I was feeling uncertain but the passage we looked at this morning reminded me that God is sovereign and in control. He already knows what's going to happen and I just need to trust his plan. Actually this whole week, things have all been around that...take risks, trust God, let go.
My friend also reminded me that Bangladesh is only the process of God transforming me and that it isn't 'IT'...Bangladesh is part of the change in my heart and who I am as a person towards what God has planned for me....
SO in my hesitation, i'm given this proverbs haha
the first thing that came to my mind was, Amanda, if you don't go, then who will I send to share my love? Where there is no oxen, the manger is empty. If I have no one to send, how can there be a harvest...but from the strength of an ox comes an abundant harvest.
I just need to trust that God is with me. He will give me strength and take me through all the difficulties...I need to remove all the thoughts that Satan is putting in my mind and just believe.
SO...this is a tentative yes until I talk to my parents :)