time to go...?

ahh I feel so restless...I've been studying everyday but i'm still behind :(( I just want to travel!!!! There's this thing where you could go abroad for a month and get a TEFL degree...and then I could teach english for a year after I graduate...I also just want to study abroad...

I have no idea what I want to do in school and what I'm gonna do when I graduate. I just want to go out and experience things, see things and learn things. I've been reminded that being a student is the time to do just that...to go out of your comfort zone and try things, to experience new things and grow. As a student we have so many opportunities and I don't want to look back a few years from now and have regrets because I didn't go out and try things. I want to do as much as I can and experience as much as I can so I can't say that I didn't get to do this or that because I didn't try or I was too lazy. I want to have the opportunity to decide whether or not I want to...I know I have to be realistic but is it really crazy to go to somewhere like Prague and get a TEFL degree and then Australia to study abroad? I feel like if we don't do it while we're students, it's going to be even harder once we've settled down as working adults...

My friend told me that I always say a lot of things and always want to do a lot of things but that I never actually go do them...and as much as I hate to admit it, it's true. I have a lot of dreams and aspirations, things I want to try and experience and see...but I just say that and never actually go and do it. I guess whenever I think about doing things I always get tied down by the responsibilities I have here...whenever I start thinking about it, I remember my 'duties' here and I can't just pick myself up and go...I feel if I do i'm just being selfish...

I dunno...I would LOVE to study abroad and immerse myself in a new culture. I would love to see new things, experience new things and meet different people. I feel like by doing that, you're opened to so much more than if I stayed here...whether these things are good or bad...but I feel regardless...everything in life happens for a reason and you can learn from every experience...I would really love to be able to go...I feel also that by learning all these things that are new to me, I can also learn about myself, who I am, and possibly be able to see what I'd want to do in the future with my life.

ahh these are all just thoughts...and again I feel like i'm just talking and thinking and I don't feel like it's realistic...but I guess whether it happens or not depends on me right? Instead of just sitting here and thinking, I should do something about it? There's just so much that needs to be thought about though...I mean if it was just me, I'd go right away...but it's not just about me...there's so much that I need to take into account.... >~<

I guess prayer would be good haha...all God's timing whether things happen...but I need to cease the opportunity??

i should be studying but instead i spent the last hour and a half on flickr -___- haha i miss taking and editing photos...if i could just do that for school then i would looove it :P

my classes this term are so hard!! i am already feeling the pressures of 3rd year and it's only been the first week :/ i am SO excited -.- haha

The first week of school is always so chaotic!!! I'm feeling much better about it though. I feel like slowly everything will slowly fall into place :)just keep praying and trusting.

I saw this somewhere, prayer is more for a change of our hearts than to move the hand of God. :)

classes start in 3 days!!! -____- right now i'm still a little stressed because my classes have still not worked out! i'm not really sure what to do right now...do i just go to all of the classes just in case i miss something? Should i just take something else all together...should i still switch programs?!!! ahhhhhh! school always makes me stressed :( hopefully things will work out, i guess i really just need to trust God with my direction right now and keep praying :/

wow. I can't believe it's September already! This summer definately flew by like crazy. I had an amazing trip to the west tho :) I will put up some pictures here soontimes :) Life seems so chaotic now that I'm back in loo. I just feel like there's so much that needs to be done but so little time!

vacation week

so this week has been good times.

a new assistant from germany came on monday and she's living at the house. it's been nice having someone else here :) we had a bbq monday night at karla's and she has the cutest puppy ever!

tuesday was pretty laid back, we went canoeing again :D that was fun but i got a really bad tan line...i need to start thinking about how to work my tan otherwise it'll look weird for heidi's wedding! hahahaha

today was amazingggg! hehehe obviously cuz spain won and i was watching the game with 5 other germans! it was so awesome when they scored! haha i was so happy when they won but when i looked around at my friends and how depressed they were i felt so bad i really couldnt show my happiness! hahah it was AWESOME tho! seriously i so hope they beat netherlands and win the world cup! they've never done that before!!!

anywayy i need to take a shower and wash off all the face paint! haha

hehe so i had roasted marshmellows yesterday :P it was soooo goood! haha i went back to strat early and went out with the other assistants to have a bonfire :) fun times

spain is playing soon =___= i am nervousingggg i just wish the game would start now!!! haha